haven ben blogging for sometime. reason too many things happen, afraid to blog,
ever since i shifted out, i miss my mum so much. never in my life i experience it and i nv thou i wld ever feel this way. decided to went hme yesterday to visit her n take some stuff as well as giving. when talking to her and when she help me to pack my stuff, i feel like crying till i cannot control it, i went to the toilet and cry cos i dont wanna let my mum see. it's have been a long time since my last cried.
my niece was sleeping, i miss her too. i miss this hse which i once hated. i hated myself for not treasuring it. soon my niece wake up, when she call me i feel like crying already so i told my mum i'm leaving. i hold back my tears till i step out of the house.
gg into adulthood is so painfull. i miss those stuff that i once hated. my schooling life, my ns life etc. i seek for other stuff and found out all these are not impt. if only time could go back but sad to say once lost is forever lost. time can nv go back.
God i thank you for letting so many things happen that remind me that i'm living for the love that save my soul. God always pull me back when i'm drifted or distracted by other stuff. i always wonder why God have to be so strict on me. sometime it's killing me, buti believe it's for my good.
now i seek for a simple yet blessed life.